Must You Quote Me?

A while ago my friends took my word buttmunch and it got on my nerves because it was stupid while I was using it, but when they use it, its like sooo "cool". That's what got on my nerves because I feel like I never get recogniction for things I do. I'm noticing it now because I don't know, but in American history they basically leave me to do all of the work while they just sit there having a good time. Then, I start using these words that no one has used in like forever and when I start using them I get looked at like I'm a fricking five year old. Then like a month later they start using the word I had been using and its like the new "trend". I hate it. Am I being the trend setter or what? I don't like it, obviously, but I would if I was recognized as the trend setter. Now just cause one time I freaked out cause they were using my words and getting recognized, that everytime they say one of "my" words they say sorry to me and I'm taking a hole lot of offense to that as if they are saying it in a mocking, sarcastic way! I mean, I dunno, it's just really annoying because I start something and I get looked at like I'm crazy and then they start doing it like its the "thing" to do. Another thing I don't like that ties in with this is being thought of as stupid. I feel like I've totally changed since last year, like I'm the group clown that no one takes seriously and I'm not liking it. I don't like being called stupid, only when I say it to myself, its never fun to be called stupid. I wias I could be serious with my group of friends and tell this to all of them, but I don't know exactly how many of them would take me seriously. I want to be serious in my group, but that wont happen. I tell carmi I got hurt and you can tell from my tone of voice that I'm not real happy about it and she'll laugh. That's annoying. I'm beginning to wonder what it's like to be an outcast.